another day in my journey

Tadinya, bersama trio kwek-kwek, kami akan menuliskan tentang kejadian yang 'sangat-sangat-sangat menguras emosi banget'. Judulnya "prahara cinta akibat praktek ilmu hitam di lingkungan kampus", tapi ga jadi. Karena akhirnya saya sadar, biarlah itu menjadi bagian duo kwek-kwek.hoho. Tau kenapa?Karena ga akan cukup 1 post untuk mengungkapkan semua kekecewaan itu (cuih....salah gaul ni)

Dear kampus tercinta yang telah mempertemukan kita,,,

(oops,,salah)

Dear God yang telah mempertemukan kita,,,

I really thank God, bahwa setelah 1 hari yg cukup menguras hati, tenaga, pikiran, dan berat badan, masih ada mix max yang menemani alias begitu banyak orang yang kita cintai, yang jauh lebih bijak daripada de Mello & Ajahn Brahm bagi saya, yang telah memberi teladan yang senyata-nyatanya bagi saya untuk bersikap & berpikir. Masih punya perhatian buat orang lain, waktu untuk keluhan orang lain, semangat dan canda untuk dibagi dengan orang lain. Bahwa amarah, hanya akan melukai kita, dan hidup akan lebih damai tanpanya (yang ini boong. belum pernah ngrasain tuh). Bahwa hidup sabar & sederhana itu mungkin untuk dijalani. proook....prooook....prooook.........

2 orang pria, sama-sama pinter, sama-sama penderita tekanan darah tinggi, tapi  masih bisa untuk jaauuuuuh lebih sabar daripada saya, yang cuma mengidap gigi berlubang akut level 3.hhsss......miris emang. Dengan diskusi yang menyejukan hati, ada banyak hal yang saya sadari, walau baru sampe level sadari, bukan jalani (tapi coming soon koq), bahwa begitu banyak waktu, tenaga, pikiran, & keidealan berat badan yang telah saya buang percuma untuk hal-hal yang tidak membawa keuntungan bagi saya. Amarah, kecewa, iri hati, antara gengsi dan kurang pede, yang hanya menjauhkan diri kita dari kebenaran, hehe, jauh emang. Hanya menjauhkan diri kita dari begitu banyak keindahan di dunia ini. Karena kebahagian kita, hanya diputuskan oleh diri kita sendiri. Apapun jalan yang kita pilih, apakah kebahagian kita terletak pada keadaan, pada kesengsaraan orang lain, atau pada bagaimana cara batin kita menerima (ga cuma memberi lho ternyata yang susah,menerima juga sama susahnya). Thats all i got today & I thank God for what i've got everyday

thanks to : The Most Inspirational People of The Year,, my ex-boss, ga dink, you'll always be my boss paaaaak.....(ikuuuut.....) yang akan selalu saya hormati dan kagumi, juga pria yang selalu saya smsin, telponin, omelin, ngambegin, mintain duit, mintain pulsa, mintain jajan (koq ga enak semua gitu), yang juga akan selalu saya nanti kehadirannya (yang tugas akhirnya W.O.W), cieeeeee...........thanks God atas kesempatan mengenal orang hebat

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Another Regrets

Melanjutkan pembicaraan tentang penyesalan, here comes my favorite article about life, about regret. Entah sudah berapa kali diulang bacanya. supaya tak berkurang maknanya,ga usah ditranslate ah...(hoho.males)


Awalnya dibaca dari sini (blognya penulis favorit) , yang sudah dirangkum dari tulisan originalnya.


The Five Regrets


For many years I worked in palliative care. My patients were those who had gone home to die. I was with them for the last three to twelve weeks of their lives.


When questioned about any regrets they had or anything they would do differently, common themes surfaced again and again. Here are the most common five:


1. I wish I’d had the courage to live a life true to myself, not the life others expected of me.
When people realize that their life is almost over and look back clearly on it, it is easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made, or not made.
From the moment that you lose your health, it is too late. Health brings a freedom very few realize, until they no longer have it.


2. I wish I didn’t work so hard.
This came from every male patient that I nursed. All of the men I nursed deeply regretted spending so much of their lives on the treadmill of a work existence.


3. I wish I’d had the courage to express my feelings.
Many people suppressed their feelings in order to keep peace with others. As a result, they settled for a mediocre existence and never became who they were truly capable of becoming. Many developed illnesses relating to the bitterness and resentment they carried as a result.


4. I wish I had stayed in touch with my friends.
Often they would not truly realize the full benefits of old friends until their dying weeks and it was not always possible to track them down. Many had become so caught up in their own lives that they had let golden friendships slip by over the years. There were many deep regrets about not giving friendships the time and effort that they deserved. Everyone misses their friends when they are dying.


5. I wish that I had let myself be happier.
This is a surprisingly common one. Many did not realize until the end that happiness is a choice. They had stayed stuck in old patterns and habits. The so-called ‘comfort’ of familiarity overflowed into their emotions, as well as their physical lives. Fear of change had them pretending to others, and to their selves, that they were content. When deep within, they longed to laugh properly and have silliness in their life again.


Tulisan originalnya di sini


Enjoy your life,,Deo Gratias

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No Regret

Sebagaimana semua pasangan di dunia belahan mana pun, termasuk Kim Jong Il yang telah mendahului rakyatnya, saya pun pernah berantem (sering malah). Hari ini juga nyerempet-nyerempet. Tanpa bermaksud curhat, seiring dengan boomingnya lagu Katy Perry di chart billboard & chart apa saja, hari ini pacar saya menengahi perdebatan kita dengan lagu Katy Perry tersebut. Bukan berarti dia menyanyikan lagunya katy perry buat saya (karena risiko saya makin jengkel malah lebih besar), hanya menggunakan lirik lagu tersebut buat kita bisa berpikir lebih jernih lagi & secara dewasa dan tidak gegabah dalam mengambil keputusan dalam hidup ini. Termasuk di dalamnya tidak menyia-nyiakan kesempatan dan menyesalinya di kemudian hari (brasa lagi ngasih sambutan di awal tahun ajaran baru.hehe)

Here it comes,,(yang secara ga sengaja keputer waktu saya nulis ini.padahal udah dishuffle lhoooo.....)

The One That Got Away

Summer after high school when we first met

We make out in your Mustang to Radiohead

And on my 18th Birthday

We got matching tattoos

Used to steal your parents' liquor

And climb to the roof

Talk about our future

like we had a clue

Never plan that one day

I'd be losing you

In another life

I would be your girl

We keep full of promises

Be us against the world

In another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash

Never one we got the other we made a pact

Sometimes when I miss you

I put those records on

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

Saw you downtown singing the Blues

Its time to face the music

I'm no longer your muse

And in another life

I would be your girl

We keep full of promises

Be us against the world

And in another life

I would make you stay

So I don't have to say

You were the one that got away

The one that got away

All these money can't buy me a time machine (Nooooo)

Can't replace you with a million rings (Nooooo)

I shoulda told you what you meant to me (Woooooow)

Cause now I pay the price

The point is (bukan we make out in your mustang yaa,,,,,hihi) ...... but the point is "cause now I pay the price". Now, we all pay the price for what we've done in our past.

let there be no regret in this beautiful life

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love is fun

despite tugas - tugas kuliah yang semakin menumpuk saking keseringan ditunda, saya lebih memilih menghabiskan malam ini dengan melepas rindu (bokis!!!) dengan blog tercinta, sehubungan sang pacar yang sudah pasti tidur duluan.

started this day with an annoying atmosphere at the office, i will end this day (still) with "big,big, very big, laugh out loud "

huahahahaha

here comes the story

100% people in this world ever fall in love. while one of my friends choose to "ngejar-ngejar-sampe-terkesan-maksa" to get his princess (the love story of R.D.M.L.S), & saya memilih untuk menghabiskan waktu dengan hal-hal keren sambil menanti kedatangan si prince charming, one of my friend (which we could call her ANIWATI), choose the other way. she choose to sketch this comic :

and then,,have you ever imagine what happen next? i never have!!

the original version of this comic is,,,cuma ada 2 orang, sang wanita berambut panjang di sebelah kiri & sang pria. teman saya si aniwati ini, have a crush on him since...mmm.....last year?or maybe last semester. unfortunately for her, her prince charming had a girlfriend (or maybe fiance??oops.i hope not, dear). so, kami bertiga (trio kwek-kwek dari barat yg mencari kitab trik mendapat ijazah dengan mudah) spend this semester, mungkin sampai semester depan bahkan, dengan kegalauan level berat si aniwati. sometimes we can be so cruel, and another times, kita bisa ngakak sampe besoknya lagi karena kegalauan rekan kita ini.

the original version of this comic (ditambah kuppu-kupu, bunga-bunga, bintang-bintang, dan kunang-kunang), akhirnya kemudian jatuh di tangan yg salah, tangan seorang R.D.M.L.S (Ryan De Masif Lagi Subur) yang berpikir bahwa ANIWATI akan mendapatkan prince charmingnya sebagaimana R.D.M.L.S mendapatkan pacarnya.

so,R.D.M.L.S memberikan komik tersebut ke Prince Charming-nya aniwati (ooops)

tak cukup sekian, R.D.M.L.S pun mengistruksikan Prince Charming-nya aniwati untuk mengkonfirmasi pengiriman paket tersebut (WHAT THE...!!!)

hahahaha. have you ever imagine that? we adore the prince charming secretly, trying to pretend that we dont care bout him, that our life so cool without him,even though every second, minute, and hour in day and night all we ever think is him, and just in a few second of this very very old world, semuanya jungkir balik. the prince charming could feel that we are truly madly deeply desperately carzyly (hehe) in love with him. ouch!!

for aniwati, its a cruel,cruel,cruel,part of her Happy-Ending-Love-Story-Forever-And-Ever (she hope so). but for me & christine (member of trio kwek-kwek), this story light up our life.hahaha

love can be so beautiful, so wonderful, so sad, & so cruel, but for our friend, aniwati, love can be so fun!!haha

hope the best for you dear, sapa tau ini jalanya. hehehe. semoga yg terbaik juga bagi kita semua.

nitez everybody.......may arsenal win the EPL.yeah!!

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